Sunday, December 29, 2013

2014 New Year Resolution (bilingual - 2 bahasa)

How are you guys it's been a while since the last post that i have...
Nothing change from me at least just i don't have any appetite to eat hahaha.. So it is so cold here in Salatiga, and rainy... but it is rather OK :D

 English :

Let's Go to the POINT, 2014 Resolution!

1. Be more FAITHFUL in GOD (you know it is my weakness)
2. Helping my father more (even though he didn't ask)
3. Pray for peeps that i love more
4. Become more diligent college student  
5. Can spend more time with my old communities (at least balance it w/ my college life routines)
6. Become a more professional Language Tutor 
7. Become a more professional Journalist
8. Love everyone more genuine, even though they treat me like rubbish
9. Let all bad experience in past go, forget it, just surrender it to God.
10. Make a new life. 100% new.
11. More open to people even though it is going to hurt me more.
12. Be more tough and not sensitive if it needed.
13. More open to my sister.
14. Hopefully a new Android Cellphone...
15. Be more in shape haha
16. Maintain my FASHION BLOG again ;)

Bahasa Indonesia :

Resolusi 2014 :
1. Lebih beriman dan percayakan segala sesuatu kepada Tuhan
2. Bisa bantu bapak lebih banyak
3. Lebih mendoakan semua orang yang aku sayangi dan cintai (keluarga, temen main, temen organisasi, temen kampus, mas-mas, mbak-mbak 2011, temen-temen deket 2013)
4. Jadi mahasiswa yang LEBIH rajin (nah loe...)
5. Menyeimbangkan waktu untuk berkumpul sama komunitas lama (komunitas murid2ku, organisasi di mana aku kerja, SOLAFIDE, PA)
6. Jdi guru yang lebih profesional dan nggak gampang capek
7. Jadi jurnalis yang profesional (mungkin aku mau minta 1 periode magang lagi di SA, merasa belum begitu pro utk jadi pure anggota)
8. Tetap mencitai orang2 dengan tulus, walau (seumpama ya amit2, mereka memperlakukanku seperti sampah. spt bbrp org yg g ush d sebutkan namanya ;) )
9. Melepaskan segala masa lalu, terutama yang buruk. Menyerahkan segala kepedihan, luka kepada Tuhan. Belajar memaafkan dan melepaskan semua kesesakan.
10. Hidup 100% baru.. perpaduan antara aku SMA dan aku kuliah, tapi beda, terbuka tapi keras
11. Lebih terbuka dengan orang, dengan resiko lebih disakiti
12. Lebih sensitif dan keras saat diperlukan
13. yang ini tidak akan saya terjemahkan hahaha
14. Semoga tabungan cukup beli HP android baruuu Samsung atau Sony lah ;)
15. Maskulinnya di kurangi dikit, terus lebih peka dan TETAP berpegang pd anti PHP
16. Lebih kurusan lah ;)
17. Menghidupkaan kembali fashion blogku

I think those are enough for now ;)
What is your resolution?

Cinta Carnelian


Friday, December 6, 2013

Feel Loved

Who remember here how I feel insecure in the first time i get into my university?
i feel really loved recently...
by people that i think i won't get any love from them...

I remember how i had a pretty bad week. Gaby was with me for a whole week. I always out, and hang out anywhere randomly. then I pray to God, in church with Pita stay behind me. I pray for that guy who i am not really sure if i like him or just adore.... Then God makes it clear if i am not falling in love or anything with him.

I remember how amazingly Mas Yogi gave me very useful advises about those things, then how mas Adhi Wardoyo told me about many stuffs that also open my eyes and my mind too. and I remember that day, in a day that i need someone or whoever beside me because i am down (my girl BFFs were still there) i texted mas Agung and I told mas Adhi W and mas Yogi, and all of them just say yes. mas Agung went to mas Yogi's flat; Gaby, mas Kadir, mas Adhi W and I went to mas Yogi's flat together; but on the way there I saw some guys from 2011 Communication especially from the Kroco group (well some are from other groups too, and it was minus duo R) are riding their bike then when I arrived in mas Yogi's flat, there were about 13 guys there. I saw mas Agung and hugged him like always and asked why there were tons of guys there. mas Agung smile and said "you wanna hang out right?" then Ko Yosse shout "who is the one who got an idea to hang out tonight?" and everyone point at me. than he shout "Oh girl, no sadness tonight, let's go and make you happy!"

and we go, i kind of love that night. everyone shared funny stories and i feel like any brothers's little sister again. we went to a night cafe, sit on mat, eat cheap and good food. the point isn't where we hang out, but our togetherness. how they try to make me forget my pain and another. and after that night we hang out again the day after that only with mas-mas from Kroco and ka Ge and ka Amel also Dorkas and Thomas. we ate in the NC again and talk funny stuffs. and in that whole bad week i was only with them and they always able to make me feel happy and alive.

Then i know, who are the ones who love me purely and who are the one who fakes. if you asked me now, if God ask me to list 10 people to be saved from the dooms day, i am going to say My dad, my brother Ariel, mom, sister, mas Agung, mas Yogi, mas Adhi W, Pita, Thea and Alex Pinnington. and if my dad n mom refuse to join i wanna add ko Jaya and mas Kadir or mas Adi G. I have so much love for them.

also on my birthday, i invited 20ish people. and all of mas-mas kroco (now include Robby and Ridwan) were there plus mas Aptasena (gosh idk where is his position) because he was my senior in HS and he always shares his painful love stories to me (well i told him if that girl just playing around and fooling him but he didn't want to listen, then she dumped him like a trash) and i can say it was the best birthday i ever had. no gift, but their appearances are the gift for me. mas Yogi was sick that day and he came. oh God, i love these people badly.

another love that i always get from are for sure with my college inner best friends like Gaby, Thea, Nanda, Nini, Tiara, Alex and Calvin also Moris, Ivan, Thunder, and Thomas. they are always there for me at noon (usually mas-mas part is at evening-night). Alexander Pinnington (he is my distance ear, haha if i got a very bad day the first guy that i contact is always him, and we always text each other few times in a month and always mostly in the right time when i need him) and the most wow thing is he always remember me.. he is totally an awesome friend! and the Gilleys, Kayla and Craig they are always there for me... This couple is the best couple EVER!

This is Christmas, and this is a season for love..
for those people who I love and love me, Thank you very much for everything. I always pray for you. I love you with all my heart.
p.s for mas Agung : maintain your diet and rest more, you are sick now.. hati-hati
ps. maaf mensionnya pake nama aja kadang-kadang.. biar gampang wkt nulis
if you wanna know the list of my heroes:
Family : My dad, mom, brother, sister and my dog
Old best friends : Wati and Pita (since Elementary School), Karin since HS
2013 best friends : Gaby, Thea, Nanda, Nini, Tiara, Alex, Calvin, Ivan, Moris,Eddo and Thomas, Arya (add Dorkas here even though he isn't FISKOM)
Mas-mas kroco : Agung, Yogi, Adhi W, Adi G, Kadir, Jaya
mas-mas outside kroco : Yosse, Aptasena
mbak-mbak kroco : Tasya, Ge, Amel
Others : Alexander Pinnington, Kayla and Craig G.